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I hate that my summers are meaningless. I hate in general have nothing to do. I know it may seem strange to some, but I do not like to be without nothing to do. I have to act. I have to do something. I need it. Otherwise I fall into a kind of depression that takes the form of apathy without precedendenti, with peak hours past magnificence, if you grant me the term, including computers, television and contemplation of emptiness, of course with the ubiquitous snack.
fall short a spiral of sadness, self-pity and melancholy music cazzeggiano internett, usually characterized by an abundance of movies and TV series.
Not even the shadow of a smart and healthy activities such as reading, study languages, listening to rock music, go out with people in the flesh, sea bathing and healthy physical activity.
This summer I say NO to this day. There are already a relapse last week, and I do not want it to be repeated for the entire course of my summer. I am depressed? I go out and shoot myself in the bike's liveliest music that I know in my ears. I'm tired? I sleep and then play a bit 'of English. I do not want to see people? I go out alone, I take an ice cream and I start to read. Or I see a movie or listen to English or German. Or read or write. In short, there are things to do. Why waste time? We complain so much about not having time to do what we want during the school year because of the study, and now that it is summer we just laze around all day? You are doing well, but such a despicable and useless activity is not for me. No thanks.
Just getting up in the morning till noon, I do not need. Just a sedentary lifestyle and bacon annoying. Just eat at all hours of day and night. Just missed whole days at the computer is completely dissociated from the outside world. Just do not go out, hoping (in vain) for someone interesting to connect. Just to be sad and wistful waiting for a sign from people far away. Just wait (in vain) that the phone rings or msn nudges. Get the damn phone and calls, organizes, see who is alive and who is dead. Suffice to say that nasty habit that gradually becomes drug called laziness. I know it seems an anti-drug slogan, or anti-smoking, or otherwise linked to something serious and political. I know that many people I know judge me completely insane, but frankly, I do not care. There are many things about myself that I do not feel satisfied. And this summer I'm going to settle them, at least for those that are heavily dependent on me. For the others, I'll do my best.
My situation has become unacceptable, and I do not stand with folded hands.
This summer I will try to achieve the demanding targets seriously, because, given my competitive nature, is the only way to get something.
I want to improve in English. I want to start listening (= study) German. I really really really find work because work gives me satisfaction, especially working with children. I want to earn my own money, and make my wardrobe with my clothes are really comfortable, do not want to sound like an idiot when I go around the street. I want to get back into shape, with no more complex when they are on the beach. I want to go to the gym and do spinning. I tan well. I want to put your contact lenses. I want to read much, so much. I
cut my hair, or find a decent way in which to put them. I want to get at least three nights a week with people with whom I enjoy. I want to go to the beach with my friends, or alone to give me a quick bath after my bike 10 miles daily. I want to meet new people, possibly nice. I really try to respect the appearance of the diet. And I want you back for inspiration. And I do not tell me that the grass growing in the garden of the king, because I never believed it. I'm not saying that most will not touch the computer, or my house becomes a place of passage. It is important not to overdo it. You can say what you want, lovers of excess, but it is not always appropriate. I can extend beyond the strangeness of dress, I can exceed the number of bathrooms to go to sea. Can I go beyond a bit 'in dealings with other people. I do not have to miss perfection and professionalism. But the important thing is that there is a balance of back bottom, it is important to be aware of being over the top. Because the real issue here is not going as well as you manage to get, but if you can stay balanced on the edge, and pass it at the same time refraining. Be a minimum balance is not the same as being boring or serious. You can go out and do all the crazy things you want, but when you're alone with yourself, just be aware of all the deeds done, and regretting the fewest possible. This balance is to have: To go home and sleep soundly. This is what I want to get this summer: total improvement on all fronts. Because I finally found out what the problem is, and has nothing to do with the world: the problem is me. I do not feel at ease with myself. Point. And then, at the cost of political slogans echoing once or advertising, I say:
Things are not? Stand up and cambiamole. It 's my turn to play now.
